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swimming
swimming again. i hate swimming. that's why instead of swimming i was seated in this cosy corner away from the sun stoning. and randomly injecting comments into Jethro and Choo Jun's conversation regarding the coucil elects. C FOR THE WIN! I TOTALLY LOVE HER MAN. SHE'S LIKE THE EPITOME OF BIMBOS. seriously.well i feel FAT. like seriously. actually the reason why i don't want to swim is that i don't wanna show my big fat ass to the rest of the world. WHATEVER. you may say i'm self-conscious or whatever but if i have a fab body i won't hesitate to show it off. like law. but i don't and i don't want my insecurities to come creeping into my life bit by bit like a bug biting and gnawing at me so much so that i relapse and fall back into what i've tried so hard to come out of. my body sucks and i really regret what i did. why i did it still puzzles me to this day.. but there's no saying if i will fall back into it again. i don't want to but i don't think i'm strong enough. not on my own but i find strength in the Lord. Even then, He can't transform me into some kind of barbie doll. I deserve what i've done to myself so i guess it's kind of my punishment. well i was skinny once even though not in a healthy manner and i guess for that, i've given up my ability to grow any more. i regret what i've done and i would do anything to reverse time back so that i could live my life differently and appreciate all that i had last time. i regret it terribly.
“some people feel like they don't deserve love. they walk away quietly into empty spaces, trying to close the gaps of the past.”
“This is how you do it: you sit down at the keyboard and you put one word after another until its done. It's that easy, and that hard.”
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