Isn't it nice to have time to spare? Time to laze around like a pig, sleeping in late, watching as many korean drama serials as you like, to dream, to do things you never had time to do before.

Meeting up with Theo made me realise that I guess different people have different ideals and things they want in life. Some really want to make their mark out there in the corporate world, to be one of the high fliers who you know manage to climb to the top of the corporate ladder, establish their own companies and be really successful in their career. Others want a more laid back life. Doing whatever you want to earn a living. Not living from hand to mouth but living off yourself by doing what you like and what you enjoy. Wherever God takes us, I'm sure we'll both find happiness somehow.

Recently the results of the Oxford applications just came out. It's kind of shocking and scary that I know these people who are going to Oxford? Like these people are going to be Singapore's future (or maybe some other countries' future hee) but these people are among the brightest few in the world. It's so scary when I think about it. I had dreamed before to be successful, to get into HC for a brighter future but now I'm scared. I'm just a normal person, I'm not some wonder woman or some fantastically brilliant girl with a brain of steel. I'm just me and I don't know if people feel this way too but there comes a point when the pressure just gets too great and you just wanna give up. I think that's what happened for me. But for these people who have got something great waiting in store for them, I wish them all the best. You guys deserved it and really worked very hard for it. Maybe I gave up. Maybe I didn't work hard enough thinking I could settle for second best. Is that why there's a tinge of regret in me now?