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Standing at the platform watching the trains go by
Met up with CHUAZY the smarty for dinner. I can tell she is so so soooo bored of sitting at home and watching tv. It was fun though going back to the study lounge and looking at all the people busy mugging away. Just a year ago I was there, mugging my ass off. How I miss those days. Not the mugging but the people and the fun I had. Discussed my dilemma with Chuazy over awesome thai food and tried to iron things out but I guess I'll see how it goes :)Somehow I feel that I'm doing my students more of a disservice than anything, if I'm doing anything for them at all. The lull of work and the lack of internet access in school made me think deep and hard about my work/teaching. If I were my students, I think I would get quite pissed because there's this teacher who's fresh out of school with NADA teaching experience (except for maybe giving free tuition to primary three kids for CIP) who's come to teach me. I'm so afraid that I'm ruining their education and future. Like what if I don't teach the topics properly and they don't do well for their O levels. Then they won't be able to get into the JC of their choice and it'll all be my fault! I don't think I can take that level of responsibility for all my teaching (or lack of). I think I should let the experienced teachers take over and get out of this whole teaching thing while I still can. Cher is also thinking of quitting. She's so bogged down by the workload of it all while I'm the exact opposite. I feel like I'm a waste of resources since my mentor can easily do a better job than me. Plus I don't feel good that my learning/exposure is going on at the expanse of my students' grades. :((((((
But how should I give my notice? Should I write a note? A letter? Or should I just print a big sign and disappear? The last option sounds great.
“some people feel like they don't deserve love. they walk away quietly into empty spaces, trying to close the gaps of the past.”
“This is how you do it: you sit down at the keyboard and you put one word after another until its done. It's that easy, and that hard.”
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