tears
it's been 2 weeks since i tendered
but i've not cried this much in a while (i.e. 1 year)
the emotional turmoil and upheaval i've felt. i don't think words can describe. ok it's nowhere close to losing a loved one
but how do you endure the pain
saying why you want to leave and not being heard
instead being told
"i hope you understand when you become a parent" / "it's not only about competence it's also about luck" / "don't make work your identity"
nobody is listening as i scream through the pain
the anguish of denying you something / being treated unfairly / being stepped on / and still needing to smile
being told 'why don't you shake hands and make peace'
all my life i've had to do that. i don't think i can do that anymore.